Family that plays together- 1

It was a smoggy, overcast day, and that partially accounted

for it being so quiet, though it was the beginning of Christmas

vacation. Whatever the reason, Donna Howell was just glad that

the day had been so quiet, and she hurried to switch off the

lights in her classroom before the usual last minute gossip

wandered in, keeping her from leaving on time. It happened often

during the school term and ordinarily the attractive blonde

teacher didn't mind in the least, as she wasn't happy about going

home to an empty house. But this day she had good reason to get

home early, as she was expecting a phone call from her daughter.

Before the last of the lights were turned off, the young

teacher checked to be sure the list of instructions for the

janitor were firmly attached to the bulletin board. Everything

was in order, so she picked up her purse and coat, then walked to

the door. After looking back at the small room, she closed the

door and locked it from the outside. She glanced up and down the

familiar, but now unusually quiet, corridor, then walked briskly

out to her car, remembering that tomorrow she would be meeting her

daughter and son for a much needed holiday.

"Good grief!" she exclaimed out loud to scold herself for

having forgotten why she was in a hurry. Sheri was due to call in

half an hour, and Donna knew her daughter would worry if she

wasn't there to receive the call. Sheri had become so mature in

the past few months that it was almost frightening. In fact, when

both the children had arrived home for a weekend last month, she

had been amazed at how grown up they had become since their last

visit. They seemed more worldly wise; a look about them that she

wasn't sure how to interpret, and in some ways, she had been even

more conscious of the changes in her son.

Kevin was no longer her little boy, but instead he was a

young man maturing rapidly. Yet there was still that special

gleam in his eyes that made her feel proud, and as always she had

a hard time keeping her emotions in check. He was her boy, and

she would always want to hold and squeeze him, maybe even more

than a mother should. In fact, she had even trembled when he had

walked into the house, greeting her with an innocent childish kiss

on the cheek.

Her immediate concern was for her daughter, however, as she

had never really taken the time to discuss the things a mother

should pass on to a daughter. After Sheri had announced that a

boyfriend was coming to visit them during Christmas vacation,

several times in the few days that followed that statement, Donna

had wanted to call her daughter and talk about it. Yet she

hadn't, and somehow she felt that Sheri was more aware of sexual

matters than she.

It took fifteen minutes to drive from the school to her

Pasadena home at a safe speed, and although she was in a hurry

that evening, Donna drove at her usual pace. She knew that she

would be there in plenty of time, yet she still felt apprehensive.

As always, there was that little nag, that tiny feeling of guilt.

It was her biggest regret in life that she didn't have more time

to be a mother to her children, instead of their sole support.

Donna Howell, long ago, had decided that her children should

have the best education possible within her means, and to her way

of thinking this meant private schools. Her decision, influenced

by the necessity to teach in order to support herself and her

children, was also predicated on a belief that they would benefit

from the close ties and relationships of a private school that

would hopefully fill the gap left by her absence. This thinking,

however, was far from what either Kevin or Sheri really needed,

and while it was true that they both had developed intellectually,

physically and socially in the private school environment, there

was a glaring lack of parent-child love.

Donna Howell, in making her choice, had not only neglected

her own personal life, but had inadvertently alienated her son and

daughter from a family life of love and understanding they sorely

needed. Now that Sheri was in college, it only compounded Donna's

financial responsibilities, and on the rare occasions when they

were together, she found that the gulf between them had

perceptibly widened.

It had been Sheri who had first suggested the Christmas trip

to Yosemite, and when Donna had eagerly agreed to the reuniting of

the family, she had no way of knowing what had really precipitated

her daughter's motives. Nor at the time could she have imagined

what would actually happen--and happen in such a way that went far

beyond the bounds of family unity the young mother envisioned.

It was only on rare occasions like this that Donna Howell

questioned the way things went in her life, as she wholeheartedly

believed her main function as a parent was to do whatever was

required to provide for her children, a belief fostered by the

problems she had had to face at a very young age. She had been

the only child of a policeman, her mother having died shortly

before Donna's tenth birthday, and although her father did

everything possible to create opportunities for her betterment,

she was left on her own shortly after she turned twenty when he

was slain trying to avert a bank robbery. Donna had been a junior

in college and dating Walter Howell at the time, but not until her

father's tragic death did she attach any significance to Walter's

romantic intentions. Shortly after graduation they were married

and Donna divided her time between teaching and making a home for

her husband, but with the birth of her daughter the following

year, all of her attention was required at home. A year after

Sheri was born they had their second child, Kevin, and Donna had

pretty well settled down to being a mother and housewife, a life

she was willing to accept. But then, when she was only twenty-

two, tragedy struck again--her husband was the innocent victim of

an automobile accident.

Donna, already twice hardened by fate, rebounded quickly from

the shock, knowing full well that she had two young children to

support, and the only avenue open to her was teaching. During the

next few years, she had many male admirers, one of whom even asked

her to marry him, but she became completely absorbed in the task

of supporting her children, and in the process neglected her own

personal life. She told herself that she would never marry again

and risk the chance of losing another husband, but the truth was

that although her short lived marriage had produced two offspring,

she had been young and naive and unable to cope with the sexual

requirements that went with it.

To her way of thinking, dating exposed her to risks that she

couldn't afford to take, especially if it meant taking her time

away from earning income for herself and the children. Yet, her

startling good looks attracted many men, and she was constantly

put in the position of finding excuses to spurn offers of dates.

At first she used her children as an excuse, but later, when they

were older and away at school, she fooled herself into believing

that male companions would only be after her small, but hard

earned savings. And, next to the children, teaching was her life.

Yet there were times when she had feelings she didn't want to

recognize.

Late at night when she was lying in bed, unable to sleep,

tingling little flames of sexual desire would creep forth to dance

enticingly over her long-denied body; her loins would begin to

throb with a burning consciousness that dominated her mind, making

her want to touch herself everywhere, to be covered with the hard

muscular body of a man. Sometimes, in a dreamlike state, she

would answer the demanding fires, stroking and probing between her

thighs with hungrily searching fingers. But what always remained

was a constant gnawing hunger, a desire for a close, intimate

relationship, and she had to force herself to put it out of her

mind. The security that she had worked for so diligently, the

years of teaching, none of it was to be wasted away for some brief

moment of weakness. Over and over again, she told herself there

would be time for personal pleasures when her children were

educated and grown to adults, able to stand on their own, and when

they were home from private school, and now college for Sheri, she

was constantly worried that she wouldn't have enough time to spend

with them.

Turning off the street to the long driveway that led to the

house, Donna slowed down, then finally stopped the car. She shut

off the engine and sat quite still for several minutes, realizing

that she had been day-dreaming, driving automatically. Of late,

when her thoughts had dwelt for too long on the opposite sex, she

discovered that a warm moisture quite unexpectedly dampened the

narrow crotchband of her panties, and as she got out of the car,

she found that such was the case now. Self-consciously she walked

up the path, her mind in search of the cause for the effect

between her thighs. This state of affairs--her reminiscings of

her long departed husband, her son, and her daughter's unseen,

undescribed boyfriend--perplexed her, but when she finally had the

front door open, the insistent ring of the telephone brought her

back to reality.

"Hello?"

"Mom?"

"Yes, dear."

"You okay? You sound sort of funny."

"I ... I'm fine. Just a little tired. I was finishing up

some paper work at school and I just got home."

"Are you sure?"

"Sure."

"Okay. Everything's set here. Kevin will be here any

minute. He's going to spend the night here at the apartment, and

we'll be leaving about noon tomorrow. We'll meet you at the

Ahwahnee as planned. Okay?"

There was no answer for a minute.

"Mom?"

"... Sheri ... There's something I want to talk to you

about."

"What's wrong, Mom?"

"It's ... it's about ... Ward."

"Oh, mom! Don't be silly. He's really very nice. You'll

like him."

"I ..."

"We can talk about it tomorrow. I've got to go now. Kevin's

due any second. See you tomorrow. Bye."

The line clicked dead with finality, but Donna Howell held

the phone to her ear for several seconds longer. Finally, the

unspoken questions still choking in her throat, she replaced the

receiver in its cradle.

She stood quite still for a long minute, then finally with a

shrug, she headed for her bedroom and the unfinished packing.

Tomorrow, she thought. Tomorrow I've got to talk to her.

* * *

Kevin Howell gave the address to the taxi driver, then sank

gratefully into the security of the cab's seat cushions. He

looked upon the busy, late afternoon streets of San Diego with

apprehension, his thoughts of that day more than a little

bewildering; first the bus ride from Riverside that had seemed

unending, then the arrival in this strange city, and now the cab

ride itself.

At sixteen Kevin was nearing physical maturity, but having

lived a rather cloistered life, he was not fully prepared to cope

with adult decisions and adult anxieties in a suddenly adult

world. His six-foot frame, still youthfully slender, was the only

feature that did not bear a startling resemblance to his mother

and seventeen year old sister; a resemblance that bore very little

likeness to the man in the old and wrinkled photograph in his

wallet. In the past there had been many times when Kevin removed

that photograph and studied it intently, but of late this practice

had all but disappeared. It was the only picture he possessed of

a father he had never known, and along with the fragments of the

past passed on by his mother, it had ceased to hold much

sentimental value for him. Yet, he did not discard it. Nor did

he fail to inquire on the rare occasions his mother mentioned his

father. The fact that these occasions were rare was not a

deliberate attempt on Donna Howell's part to suppress any

knowledge about her long-dead husband, but stemmed more

realistically from the absence of Kevin and his sister Sheri from

their Pasadena home.

Kevin sat forward in the cab, his attention drawn suddenly to

row after row of carefully sculptured lawns lining the residential

street. At the last intersection the cab had swung onto a wide

palm-lined avenue, and Kevin deduced that his sister's apartment

building was only eight blocks away. The apprehension that had

been dogging him all day abated somewhat with the realization that

he would soon be there, and he began to take note of his

surroundings.

The neat houses, row upon row, and identical except for

color, appeared staid and lifeless, cold and unreal, colder even

than the towering palms rustling in the winter breeze. This

appearance reflected Kevin's own feelings. It seemed that of late

even his free time away from school was becoming routine, dull,

painfully boring. The activities that had once dominated his

thoughts, had somehow lost their importance. Sports, movies, card

games--all failed to fill the vacant hours with meaningful

pleasure. Life had suddenly seemed to have become useless child's

play.

He hadn't put it into conscious thought yet, but his boyhood

was steadily and surely slipping away; he was becoming a man.

Six blocks to go; his sister would be waiting. He knew, she

had told him so last night on the phone. But the apprehension

would not end there--that he also knew. Irrefutably. At the

apartment he would learn whether it was on or off. Sheri had

tricked him into it, and now there was no escape. Deep down,

though, he hoped it was on.

It had all started with his sister's kidding, had built up

from there until there was no backing out, and he knew that he

would soon be faced with it. It--was to be his first real date

outside of the supervised dances at school, and he had pressed her

for details, but all she would tell him on the phone was that the

girl was "something else".

Four blocks to go. He wanted to lose his virginity, but such

a happening had seemed to be such an impossible task in the

restrictive private school environment that he found it hard to

believe it was really going to happen now. He was certain he'd

have been far more experienced with the opposite sex had he gone

to public schools, but then, that just hadn't been possible. His

mother had to devote too much time to supporting them, and he

understood that. It wasn't her fault that co-educational boarding

schools didn't exist.

Two blocks to go. As far as he was concerned, Sheri had it

made. She could just about have her pick from thousands of boys

at San Diego State and get laid anytime she wanted to. Hell, all

girls could probably get screwed if they went out with the right

guy, but his older sister was popular and sexy enough to have an

even larger choice. He didn't know how much experience she had,

maybe none, but he couldn't help feeling a bit envious of her

position at times. She seemed so wise and experienced, like a

free spirit able to get what she wanted, when she wanted, and he

wished he could feel that way too. Yet, it was because of this

feeling about her that he worried. He was constantly thinking she

might get into a situation she didn't want, and then not be able

to back away from it.

No blocks to go. He was paying the cab driver when the

clicking of high heels reached his ears, and he turned to watch

his sister coming quickly down the walk toward him. Even from a

distance she looked sharp, her long blonde hair flowing in the

breeze like a golden halo around her pretty face. She had become

a young woman in such a seemingly short time that every time he

saw her he was amazed. She was wearing a dress that accented her

figure, and he couldn't help wondering how she would look naked.

It was as if she was too sexy to believe; her breasts firm and

full, her narrow waist accenting softly flared hips and long

tapering legs, and her trim young buttocks--sexier than any young

girl's had a right to be, rounding out like two firm ripe melons

waiting for someone to come along and squeeze them. He'd be happy

if his date looked half as good as his sister!

With a smile on her lips, Sheri watched her younger brother

approach. He was handsome, and even more than that, physically

appealing. Kevin had been the athletic type for some time, the

kind interested in sports and nothing more, but she noticed with

satisfaction that he was changing, and she liked what she saw.

His character and motion had mellowed into a smooth appearance,

and he exuded an intense physical sexuality that seemed to boil

from within.

"Hi, good looking!" she said fondly.

"Hi, Sis!" he responded casually. The tone would have hidden

his anxiety to anyone but her.

"Right on time I see," she said trying to look forlorn. She

wanted to keep him guessing for awhile.

"Yeah." He wanted to stay cool, but he was having a hard

time containing his disappointment. "You look nice ..."

"Thanks. So do you. How are you fixed for money?" she

questioned without explanation.

"I've got ten bucks left. You need it?" He started to reach

for his wallet.

"No," she answered, then dropped the subject. She looked

past Kevin and up the street. He turned to see what she was

looking at. "Ward's picking me up. He should be along soon," she

said looking back to her brother. His expression was strained,

and she couldn't go on torturing him any longer. She reached into

her purse and pulled out a ten dollar bill, handing it to him.

"What's this for?" he asked, his eyes fixed on the money as

if it contained some mystery.

"You'll need it tonight ... for your date!" she smiled,

seeing his eyes widen.

"Oh ... thanks," he said, but his voice was strained, giving

away his excitement. He wanted to know more; what the girl was

like! "You ... ah ... sure you won't need this?" he asked,

indicating the money in his hand.

"Her name is Susan Hatton," she replied, shaking her head

negatively to answer his question. "You're taking her out to

dinner, so you'll need more than ten dollars!"

"Oh, great, swell! Susan Hatton, huh?" He wanted to come

right out and ask his sister if the girl was a willing type, but

he didn't have the nerve. He was excited enough just knowing that

the date was on, and he had a million other questions.

"It's quite simple," she said seeing that he was still

confused. "Susan is going to pick you up here ... She'll be

driving a white Cadillac. Anyway, I told her to meet you here at

five-thirty! She'll probably be late, so don't get antsy and

leave." There was a burning question in his mind, and she knew

it. But she was determined to leave it for him to ask.

So that was it. The girl, a big car, it was all perfect, and

he hoped he was ready for it. His seventeen year old sister was

far wiser and aware of such matters, and her reassurance would be

a big help. It was a question of time enough to discuss it, and

he looked at his watch, seeing it was five-fifteen.

"What time you expecting Ward?" he asked trying to sound

relaxed.

"He's late now." She waved one arm toward the apartment

building. "Sorry I don't have time to show you around. It's 8-

A."

"Great. It's okay." Kevin swallowed, then cleared his

throat. "I guess you've had a lot of experience these past few

months ..."

Sheri cut him off. "I'm still a virgin if that's what you

mean!" she said, and when he started to nod his head, she

continued. "But I don't intend to stay one much longer!"

He didn't know what to say then. He could only stare at his

pretty sister, wondering what came next.

"When I meet the right guy ... well, you don't have to look

so worried," she protested on seeing her brother's expression.

"Ward isn't the one! At least I don't think so ... I just don't

believe virginity is a prize I should cling to forever," she added

defensively.

He was impressed by her decisive attitude, and actually

surprised that she still was a virgin. Most important at that

moment, it gave him the opportunity he was looking for. "Is that

the way Susan Hatton thinks?" he said unable to disguise a

sheepish expression.

Sheri laughed out loud, realizing that he had succeeded in

getting to the point. "Maybe she doesn't have to worry about it

anymore," she said to stimulate his imagination. "You'll like her

well enough, I'm sure. Just let things happen as they will."

He wanted more details, but she spoke as if that was all she

would give him. Maybe knowing too much was bad, at least that was

what she seemed to be getting at. "I sure appreciate your fixing

me up this way ... if there ..."

"Just have a good time and get what you want!" she

interrupted hurriedly, and she leaned up to kiss him on the cheek.

"I see Ward's car coming ... come on and I'll introduce you." She

walked to the curb pulling him with her.

Kevin looked up the street, and his eyes followed the

expensive sports car as it pulled up along side them. He was

impressed by the car alone, but the guy behind the wheel really

surprised him. He was sharply dressed, "suave" was the word that

came to his mind, but Kevin guessed the man had to be at least in

his middle thirties. Probably old enough to be his and Sheri's

father, he thought.

Sheri didn't wait for Ward to get out of the car, but opened

the passenger door and slipped onto the seat. "Ward Murdock ...

my little brother, Kevin!" she said motioning toward each.

Since there was no top on the car, Kevin reached out over his

sister's blonde head to shake the older man's hand. "Nice to meet

you."

"Your sister has talked about you so much, I feel like I

already know you," Ward answered the greeting, shaking the boy's

hand firmly.

He had a pleasant, sincere smile on his face, and Kevin

couldn't help but like the man immediately. "Well don't let me

hold you up. Thanks again Sheri!" he said giving his sister a

meaningful look.

"Just have a good time, little brother!"

"See you later." Ward said, and he started to pull away from

the curb.

"Don't do anything I wouldn't do!" Kevin yelled after the

car, but he guessed they didn't hear him. He watched as the car

disappeared from view, his mind placing himself behind the wheel

of an expensive sports car. With a machine like that, he thought,

making out with chicks would be easy.

He moved back away from the curb after looking up and down

the street, but there was no sign of a Cadillac in either

direction. The idea of him being picked up by his date made him

feel a little self-conscious, but he knew that the chances of sexy

things happening were far greater in a car than walking. He

looked at his watch, and as there was still several minutes left

before Susan Hatton was due to meet him, he walked toward the

apartment building, wondering what she looked like. He reached

the apartment and, after quickly glancing at the furnishings,

moved to the front window with its view of the street. His gaze

followed the direction the sports car had taken and he wondered

how much longer his sister was going to remain a virgin. Not

long, he finally concluded. Not long at all, judging by the look

in Ward Murdock's eyes.

And not long for himself either--he hoped.