Seed you cant feed

A SEED YOU CANT FEED:

by- John T Brown

It was before the past

But after everlast

That I decided to mask

Whatever leftover emotions I saved for last

At the sound of a blast

Everything is sad yet not so bad

Kids mad

Dad had

Just enough of all the fighting

Yelling and scream'n

All the I want I ice cream'n

You dream'n

But thought he was dream'n

Regretting the momnet he released the semen

Deep

Creep back like black hats in your sleep

Why would you feed a pit bull raw meet

You see

It goes tossed and flossed but not like dental

Cleansing the mental

True quality straight reformed essential

physical and responsible to the fiscal

Cliff hanging

Still sanging hoping he hears you praying

But mumbling ever word your sayn

A different day silk smooth over trees

Bedside accompanied by knees

Beggin the lord please

But he don't forgive for greed

Gave birth to a seed that you can't feed

Child in the kitchen

To every word she listen

Drafts from the broken walls are cold

Banging an empty cereal bowl

Fist swoll

your resonsible for the holes

Hoping you'd find gold

but all you discoved was mold

Unload the 9 mil

Just to reload

A child is a child

But a child's mind knows

Slows to a speed of life

Just to get a good look

Nevermind the books

She gets a job

Money on the table and food in the belly

Even if its peanuts and jelly

Dreaming of days with sunrise

But more moon rise

Many nights of cries

Wet red eyes

Bullets stolen

daddy's 9 mil is empty

Now she feels safety

Thinking how could daddy leave

And not take me

She bleed

Not really bleed

but cross paths with needs

Now she's on her knees

asking god please

Begging the lord please

He's next to her suffering

Right wit her

He looks down at her

He pulls the trigger

Click

Daddy you got to stop this shit

Everyday you hold that gun

Finger on trigger

I knew it

Just knew one day you'd pull it

So yeah I can't count

But I stole all six of the bullets

I didn't really steel

But you planned to steel from me

Take the only dad that I knew

Rich or broke

I know that life ain't cheap

Atleast you got me

Even if I'm only three.

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